Motivation

What motivates me? Well I guess my basic motivation in school is my desire to be a teacher and so that is why I'm here. I am motivated a lot of time by grades, something that I have been trying very hard to change. I hate that a simple letter A through F can control my ability to be motivated. I understand that the motivation has to come from somewhere else and be something that I believe in and something that I know and understand why I am doing it.

The reasons I may fail is my level of organization or my preoccupation with grades. I may not be failing in the full sense of the word by focusing on grades, I still get so much out of what I am doing, but by focusing on what I'm actually learning and thinking about how I'm becoming a better teacher will help me to really succeed. The reason I'm where I'm at today is because of always working my very hardest. I have always been motivated to do my best because I'm a pleaser. I like to please my teachers, the people I work with, my family, and especially myself. This desire to please can help me to succeed because I work so much harder, but it can also be something that causes me to fail because I do things for the wrong reasons.

Something that will definitely have to change this year is just trying to stop pleasing everybody. I just need to do the things that I need to do to reach my goals, not just what other people think I should be doing. I receive a lot motivation from people around me, but what I need to focus on is remembering the motivation that comes from me. I am so excited for the things that I am going to be learning in the next few years in my education classes and as I become a teacher. I just need to remember that and have my love of learning motivate me. Another thing that needs to change before I can succeed is my organization. I am very scattered and have a hard time remembering anything, especially when I get overwhelmed. I get really anxious, which can be a good thing, but sometimes it can really interfere with me being able to do what I need to. My motivation is in the right place, but I just need to change my environment to be able to facilitate my ideas and make things easier for me.